Something kind of wonderful and unexpected happened recently. Remember that time when I joined match and then promptly cancelled it? Well, I ended up reconnecting with an old friend through the site. We hadn’t seen each other or spoken in 8 years but I knew he was a Christian and came from a good family. As soon as we started talking, I started praying for him. We met up a handful of times and I prayed and read my bible before each meeting. I was amazed at how much we agreed on, had in common and liked each other. I could be my endearingly neurotic self with him and even though I was nervous that he would ghost me, he kept asking me out. It was awesome. We had only been getting to know each other for a few weeks but I can honestly say that I thought this could really be something. I didn’t even have any of the Holy Spirit “warnings” that I usually foolishly ignore when I am into someone, which is huge!

So what happened, you ask? I could feel myself getting too involved, too quickly and thought that we should probably slow things down a bit. I needed to get my head straight but more importantly, I wanted to make sure that this was God and not me going my own foolish way again, so I asked for some space. After a few days of minimal contact, he also asked for some space, to focus on himself and his relationship with the Lord. And while I couldn’t be happier for him, a part of me is seriously disappointed. In all my years of being single, I have never had something like this feel so right and I was not expecting the door to close so quickly.

It has been tough going back to “nothing”, after having weeks of continuous attention and excitement but I know that this is all part of God’s plan for my life. And even though I don’t understand, I am trusting the Lord to do great things. I know He will use this experience for my good. I want to encourage you to trust Him and not to let the disappointments of singleness get you down. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight” Proverbs 3:5-6.

Blessings,

Angela